anguish

Winston Churchill once said: It is a mistake to look too far ahead. Only one link of the chain of destiny can be handled at a time.
These days, even trying to live within the hour or the day is hard. I don't know why, but lately i feel as though nothing at all in my life is good. Things may not necessarily be "bad", but there is absolutely nothing that is excellent, shining and above anything else. Nothing at all in my life at the moment feels worth it. I feel like im living my life in pointless ambition. To make it worse, i dont even know what would make things better. There is nothing to fix in the short term, and i have no long term plans to make happen. Im just living a pointless, lonely life. How miserable.

overwhelming stress

i am so stressed.. i have so many things going on atm.. mostly my 3 assignments due next week.. and i am really overwhelmed by them. normally id stress, then somehow get over it and get into it. but im really really stressed.. overwhelmed.. i duno how im gona get through assignments, applications for graduation, friends/social life, parties, catching up with, family - making time to visit grandma in hospital, work, looking for a job, organising Qld, braces appointments, hair, nails, waxing appointments etc..
on a side note. im scared that my "Crazy" is being shown to people.. and im scared the more i hang out with, trust & depend on people; the crazier i will seem.. i feel like i cant get close to any1 in case they realise that im a real idiot and cant deal with me or somethin.. arghhh