Hmmz...

its funny how u can b some1s frend but not no them.. and not know some1 but actually be their frend n b really close.. im sittn here thinkn about all the friendships ive had with all different ppl.. short and long friendships.. ppl who i talked 2 only once but still remember the conversations. people on the net who enlightened me with small words. or really long conversations but when faced the person in a real life situation only shared a few words. its weird how some ppl r able to communicate so thoroughly through words rather than voice. and others are only able to express their thoughts through voice and conversation, through hand gestures and facial expressions. sometimes im able to think what i want to say but find it difficult to express that feeling into words orally. but i am able to write it down
past seems to catch up to u alot.. my cuzn reminded me of some1.. and then i saw him.. havent seen him or talked 2 him in about a year now.. get a weird feeln in my tummy thinkn about it. sometimes its best not 2 remember the past. not think or dwell about the future and just live in the moment.its the best way to live. but it leaves u stranded. especially wen i need 2 plan the future and think about my life. everytime i think about the need to studyin my tummy flips and i feel awful.. really sad.. i hav no idea y.. its the worst feelin.. :( i cant explain it.. maybe its one of those times when u need to c my facial expression 2 understand what im trying to say...