snob

im at my aunties office atm. meant to be sending and receiving her emails, and doin other stuff.. except shes busy talkin to a client.. its my day off.. :D yay.. got so much work 2 do 4 uni.. dont feel like doin it.. i finally cleaned my room yesterday.. after about a month of it gettin messier n messier.. :S.. argh at uni this girl.. she makes me feel so uncomfortable.. when i first met her she talked about god and religion for an hour.. and after that i felt so odd.. i felt really bad coz i wanted to avoid her at all costs... i had a lecture on wednesday.. a really boring 1.. my lectures run for 2 hours.. and i was so not in the modd for it.. i got there and the elcturer wasnt there.. waited for 15 minutes and he still wasnt there.. and THEN!.... the weird girl.. (well shes niot weird.. but wateva).. well she came and sat next to meee.. i didnt no what to do.. i said hi.. and told her i was about to leave xcoz ive been sittin there for a long time.. she said ok bye.. and i ran off.. i feel like the biggest snob :(.. but am i? or is it ok not to talk to people who make u feel uncomfortable? i feel really bad.. i dont wana talk to her.. its really uncomfortable and weird.. but i dont wana b a snob.. and im stuck at this uni for 3 years.. shes there for 3 years too.. oh wellz.. other than that.. the poeple at uni r pretty kool.. but i still miss uze all..! lets have a get together at my place 1 day, we can play games, watch movies, and eat food.. if anytime any of u wana meet up or come over, just let me no.. ill organise it.. :D anytime at all.. id ont care.. :) oh and this weekend its assyrian new year.. and theres this festival on sunday at fairfield showground.. if any of u wana come.. let me no.. itll b fun.. or if uze dont wana come to that.. we can do somethin on saturday.. the zoo is still an option.. we didnt end up goin this weekend.. just let us no if any of u r available
gota go do some work.. edit this later

disappointing hair

i got my hair done on saturday.. and i wasnt 2 happy with the cut.. i didnt realise how bad it was till on tuesday. just b4 i washed my hair.. i took a foto of it just incase it went curly.. i looked at the pic.. and i hate my hair.. i neva look at my back side.. and my hair from the back was shocking.. well IS shocking.. its a V shape.. and i wanted a U shape.. i didnt want layers... and hes cut sooo much.. ive got layers everywhere.. so when it grows out.. even now.. its like fluffy.. argh.. and i feell sooooo bad.. my cuzin went 4 her 1st ever time to get hair p.straightened.. my recommendations n everythin.. and when she washed it 4 the 1st time it went curly.. and frizzy.. and gross.. and now she has 2 call up and c whats gona happen.. and its all my fault.. i so trusted them.. been there a few times now.. and now its kinda disappointing.. im not gona blame the shop.. its probably the hairdresser.. i had some guy named KEN.. so if uze eva go dreamix.. dont get him.. yeh i feel really bad about kathryns hair.. i couldnt even call up 4 her coz i didnt finish uni till 6 today.. i hope she atleast gets it redone 4 free.. or a refund.. seriously 300 bux is alot when u think about it.. :S

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this morning i checked my horoscope for yesterday.. and its so true.!

Pisces 12-03-2006
You might wake up this morning, look in the mirror and decide that you hate what you see - even though you probably look fine. Therefore this is a good day to shop for new clothes, or get that haircut. Perhaps you're feeling a little blue, and getting out and indulging yourself is more a necessity than a luxury. But don't overindulge in food or drink at this time, dear Pisces; tomorrow you might not like the consequences!

lol.. yesterday i did wake up n feel gross, even though i had gotten my hair done on saturday.. and i went shopping.. and i bought clothes.. :D yay.. and last night i was eating chips n drinking coke.. and i felt yuk so i stopped eating.. and told my sister not 2 let my drink soft drinks for a long time.. coz its really unhealthy...
feelin really alone atm.. u no that alone.. ur not actually alone, but its like noone undestands u.. and noone is actually there 4 u.. they're there for the point of just being there. i duno how to explain it.. but i want some1 whos there 4 me.. and only me.. even if its just for a minute.. it would b nice 2 have some1 who cared enough to just sit there 4 u.. oh wellz waateva...
todays my day off from uni.. yay.. but im kinda bored.. i have alot of hw, and normal work to catch up on.. if u dont do ur work.. and if ur not 'proactive'.. u will never learn anything.. theres hardly any due dates.. no1 tells u what to summarise or what to take notes on.. they dont really check hw or anythin.. if u dont go ahead and 'study'.. and do it all urself, u will never ever learn anything.. ive been goin 2 uni for 2 weeks and ihavent learnt anythin.. so im freakin out and tryin 2 become 'unlazy' with schoolwork.. and actually 'study'.. omg how scary.. me of all people.. studying.. haha.. if i ever get around to it.. i have so much time.. i only go 2 uni 3 days a week.. and i have no idea what i do on the other 4 days i have off. but it feels like i have no free time at all!.. its annoying.. ive been so busy lately.. but i duno how.. or what ive actually been doing.. oh wellz..
i havent seen any1 in ages... well ok.. since our bday picnic thing.. which was only about 2 weeks ago.. wait.. not even.. it was only last week.. :( y does it feel like ages?! =( i miss every1.. it was fun sittin under that tree and talking and laughing.. i liked laughing.. i havent laughed that much in ages.. haha lil kids and lil puppies r funny..
sometimes i think that im unable to let go.. its hard for me to see things that i love to go away..
got distracted.. gona go.. bye byez
Sam xxoxo

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last night i had a dream that i was in a shop.. a really big shop.. and i was emptying this handbag coz it was full of stuff.. then i saw these earrings.. and they were pink and i really liked them.. dangly and everythin.. i went to show my aunty and she goes to me.. they arent earrings.. its a belly ring.. so i put one down.. and i really wanted 2 buy it.. i thought i could probably wear it on my ear somehow or give it to someone else.. and as i was going to pay for it another one of my aunties was outside the shop n she called me over. so i went outside the store,. and then i saw my cuzinz at some outdoor restauraunt so i went over to them.. there were all these bbqs and they seemed to be spittin out fire so i had 2 b careful walkin over them... anywayz kathryn was there n so were dave n joe.. and i saw kathryn n i showed her the bellyring.. and i gave it 2 her.. and thats when i realised i had stolen it.. i felt weird.. kinda like i didnt care.. and when i woke up i felt guilty for not caring even though it was only somethin small..
Stealing: To dream that you are stealing, denotes that you are deprived and where the stealing takes place (at home, the office, at school....) is indicative of your neediness. Alternatively, it may signify unrealized and unfulfilled goals. You may have set your goals too high.
hmmz.. so yeh.. thats what it means.. well i havent been to the shops in ages.. so i guess its sorta right.. about the unfulfilled goals bit.. who knows..
argh ive hit a point in my life where im bored again.. u no when u have all these events ur looking forward to and hav been waitin for them to come like forever.. they come and go really quickly.. and now ur left thinkiin what next? well im there.. ive had these amazing few weeks with all this new stuff happening.. and now.. now i dont know exactly what to do..
yesterday on my day off i made a collage of pictures of all my relatives on my dads side to give to my grandma whos in hospital.. its really really big.. im really proud of it.. i hope she likes it.. shes gona b there for 2 weeks recovering from a major operation.. i was so upset.. or am upset about it. before she went in she came over and as she was leavin she said to us goodbye coz i might never see u again.. :( but im happy that she made it through the operation.. just gota wait to see if it worked.. im prayin that it did.. i hope she gets better..anywayz i made her the collage, so if we or any of my family arent able to visit her she can just look at the collage and know that we care.. lol i no how stupid does that sound.. but yeh..
hmmz.. so yeh. atm my life is at a standstill.. and im waitin.. i have uni at 12 today.. and 2nite im goin over kathryn & beccas house.. 2moro me n kat r gettin our hair 'did' hehe.. yay..
since i formatted my comp.. i havent been on much.. and i dont have much songs anymore.. :( i only managed to saved about 1000... and i havent even downloaded a downloading program to download songs.. so i rely on my internet radio.. haha
im bored.. i better go eat brekky..
bye bye
Sam

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hmmz.. i havent been on the net in what feels like ages.. but may only be a week or 2.. during this time.. kathryn turned 18, i turned 18 and Prameeta turned 18.. yay! go the 18 yr olds!.. haha.. i went to my first clubbin club at the city.. (Deep Blu at Watershed).. went to my first mardi-gras.. bought my 1st alcoholic drink... showed my i.d card 4 i.d purposes.. went to one of the best bday parties ever (Kathryns), had a pretty good bday bbq, had a great bday picnic, went to uni for the 1st time.. hmmz im so dead tired that i cant even think.. ill just fill in details later on.. gona go 2 bed now.. anywayz thanks to every1 who came n all that.. i really had a great time.. one of my bestest bdays ever :D
p.s happy belated bday kathryn & happy bday Prameeta