Hmmz...

its funny how u can b some1s frend but not no them.. and not know some1 but actually be their frend n b really close.. im sittn here thinkn about all the friendships ive had with all different ppl.. short and long friendships.. ppl who i talked 2 only once but still remember the conversations. people on the net who enlightened me with small words. or really long conversations but when faced the person in a real life situation only shared a few words. its weird how some ppl r able to communicate so thoroughly through words rather than voice. and others are only able to express their thoughts through voice and conversation, through hand gestures and facial expressions. sometimes im able to think what i want to say but find it difficult to express that feeling into words orally. but i am able to write it down
past seems to catch up to u alot.. my cuzn reminded me of some1.. and then i saw him.. havent seen him or talked 2 him in about a year now.. get a weird feeln in my tummy thinkn about it. sometimes its best not 2 remember the past. not think or dwell about the future and just live in the moment.its the best way to live. but it leaves u stranded. especially wen i need 2 plan the future and think about my life. everytime i think about the need to studyin my tummy flips and i feel awful.. really sad.. i hav no idea y.. its the worst feelin.. :( i cant explain it.. maybe its one of those times when u need to c my facial expression 2 understand what im trying to say...

To Be Determined...

omg im bored.. we're in English in the library meant to be doin some of our essays.. but i cant b bothered.. im so tired.. my back hurts and i got electricuted! :S arghh i feel like screaming.. we only got a few more days left of school. waa :'( *cries*
aww amys reminiscing about the past.. which makes me wonder about the past 2.. i miss things.. in english b4.. we were talking about if u would trade in a memory to make a new memory.. i wouldnt.. amy said she probably would.. but i cant give in memories.. memories are your life.. im soo afraid to lose memories.. so everyday of this week and our last few moments of school.. ive been trying to capture them.. taking my video cameras.. and digital cam.. takin pics and making memories. its really sad.. gona miss everyone
omg ms roberts is sooo sweet.. she made us little cards and things.. with pictures and our class names.. with like a long mesage.. its so sweet.. i wana get teachers n pplz stuff but i cbf coz i dont like organising things and then ppl backing out of it.. i dont wana do anythin anymore.. its sorta a waste of time..
my hands gettin tired.. ill edit later my english is really bad.. :( not feelin good.. im broken.. my brain isnt connected today..
byes