It was my bday and i can cry if i want to

So i had a really good weekend away. me and anna left at 5pm coz i was late coz and headed down to the south coast. we got there just before 7:30 coz of traffic, just in time to check in. then we went n put our stuff away in our cabin which smelt a lil weird. we went to explore our lil area around our cabin with the torch light. we walked through this scary place which we had previously seen a black rabbit. it was full of trees and bushes. while we walked we sang to keep the monsters away and after a minute or so, we reached our beach. hehe so pretty. then we ran back to our cabin through the scary bug fulled trees and stuff. we watched movies all nite. and at 12pm anna went n got cake and put candles outside soo prettyful. on saturday we woke up and went to jamberoo after our "sight seeing drive" no we did not get lost. hehe. jamberoo was heaps fun, especially the wave pool.. which got us a tiny bit-ish sea sick. and the one where u lie down and just float around. we must hav gone on that one like 5 or 6 times or more. lost count.. then we drove back had nice long showers. and i was dead tired. we were meant to go to kiama that night. but so so tired. we stayed in ate alot after our bbq. and watched movies and slept. this mornin, we woke up and got all prettiful and went to the kiama blowhole or wateva it was called. nice view. but it was hot and we were gettin more burnt. ouchy that reminds me. my scalp is burnt *cries* oh and we had milkshakes and got photos developed. then we headed back to the cabin and packed up. and started our journey home, except we decided to detour to a beach in wollongong. think it was city beach like the shop. anna played with some scary looking crabs that looked like spiders. and then we went home. oh and we stopped for food. hehe. that was the weekend.
i hate being back. back to reality. the whole weekend i was sittin in hope that maybe just maybe some of my friends might come down.. and now its over, and it didnt happen. and ive been so mean. and i feel really guilty for being sad. i dont think im allowed to be sad without people being concerened and that makes me feel worse. and my sisters and mum n stuff. grr. they were tryin to be nice and im just confused. i think im just tired. im always just tired. oh wellz i dont wana go to uni 2moro. maybe ill miss my lecture. yeh i think ill do that. not a really good way to start the year by missin lectures only after 1 week. but who cares..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRAMEETA! =) mwahs luv u hope ur day is beautiful