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just got back from chloes house.. celebratin her 18th =) happy birthday.. even though it was 8 days ago.. im so tired.. playin ps2.. DDR wateva.. eyetoy n singstar.. lol
i got back around 9:30.. chloes mum drove me back.. it was weird.. she doesnt speak english and i had 2 give her directions back to my house. there are alot of left turns 2 my house and i feel like an idiot coz i kept sayin left and pointing left.. and then we would smile and laugh.. lol so awkward.. it wasnt to bad though.. if i was in the car with 1 of my frends parents who spoke english they woulda been talkin 2 me and i probably would say sumthin stupid or make them get the wrong impression of me. its really important 4 my frends parents 2 like me so they can trust me and let us go out.. lol.. in the car it was really really quiet lucky the radio was on or it woulda been even more weird...
while i was sittin in the car on the way home.. i was thinkin about languages.. do people think in different languages? when u think do u think in english? wat if u didnt no any english? would u be thinking in that language? i wanna ask some1.. but how would i ask that person without knowing that same language.. and if i was talented enough to learn that language would i think in that language?
i wish i learn a new language.. or learn my own language better.. i am gettin better at speaking assyrian.. all i gota do is spend more time with assyrian people.. its really annoying.. coz i no how 2 pronounce a certain word in my head but when it comes to saying it out loud it sounds completely different than it did when it was in my head. omg i hate it wen i say sumthin stupid and dont even realise it.. like once i was talkin 2 my cuz in assyrian and i was talkin about this girl named mary.. and in assyrian i thought her name was matmarium or wateva.. and i kept sayin that was her name and my cuz and frend kept laughin.. wen i asked why they go there is no such name as matmarium coz only 'mary' has that name.. people name their daughters marium or sumthin.. oh wellz its not that bad just mainly embarassing..
amys goin back to tawain on the 8th.. and shellys goin back to china 2... every1 is goin back to their countries.. where would i go back to? this is where i was born... i get so offended wen people call me aussie.. i duno y but i dont like it.. i luv bein iraqi and assyrian its kool.. i wish i was born in iraq.. it doesnt matter.. fairfield is "assyria" hehe... wen some1 in australia goes back to their country.. e.g. china.. in china they say that ur aussie coz u came from australia but then here ur chinese.. wtf r u? so confusing..
*yawns* im so tired.. my hands, legs, body, brain.. should probably go to sleep now.. or atleast stop typin..
nite nite

ps...
Pisces Fri November 26, 2004
During the coming fortnight you'll have to pay even more attention than usual to the needs and emotions of your loved ones. If you don't, perhaps because you're busy with outside interests, you may end up having to sort out a mini crisis that someone has got themselves into. You may also find yourself saying goodbye to part of your past, which will be poignant.
ooo thats kinda scary... wonder if it comes true.. ill blog bak in bout 2 weeks and update n c if it did.. btw poignant means painful and distressing, sad & upsetting.. wonder wat past???.... (edited 20min later)