On tuesday went bowlin.. Wednesday got my ps, went stockies, Thursday went stockies.. Belinda got her friend to request songs 4 me haha funny, Friday, uni, Krispy Kremes, mounties, Saturday Fairfield, Livo, Parra.. Sunday home..
Hmmm,,, im so like bleh atm.. its so weird.. finally got my laptop hooked up wirelessly.. so good.. stuvac is this week.. i duno whats goin on these days with anythin. i dont even know how im feeling.. like my brain isnt even working.. i duno how im livin each day.. ican barely remember what i did today.. thats y i wrote down a quick list of things just so i can remember 2moro.. i hate forgetting stuff :S
I cant explain what im thinking, or feeling.. but i wana run away.. i dont wana face anythin. i have exams comin up. so much pressure and stress for 4 days.. not even 12 hours altogether. Why? Why? whyyy?? I dont wana study.. i just wana go out... i wana sit and play games and watch movies without feeling guilty..
i wana go out, i wana pierce my nose or tongue or chin or get a tat.. i wana drink n do drugs n be bad... but i wouldnt... ever..... arghhhh...... stupid moralities and responsibilities..!!!
there are so many people, and so many things that ive been avoiding. and i dont care. and i dont want to care. and i duno if what im doing is right, but i dont want anyone to tell me that its wrong. why cant i do somethin without people questioning me? why does everyone fake interest, when it doesnt even matter. why cant i write how i feel because im afraid i will be judged? why cant i say what i think without thinking twice? Why does being honest cause problems?
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"Sometimes it’s easy to feel you’re the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated or unsatisfied or barely getting by. But that feelings a lie and if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all ok. Because we all need a little help sometimes, someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it wont always be this way, that someone is out there. And that someone will find you."
Im still waiting for that someone...
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i want a tatoo! u can come with me n my sis wen we get one k :-)
lol nah i was very reluctant to watch the jap movie tv, but they put it on during lunch so ya i just sat down to eat lunch while the other ppl watch the movie, and then i realised it was actually alright.
but ya.. the guy has to be hot or else it ruins the visual bit.
HalfPrince
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