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at the moment im feeling really weak.. vulnerable.. fragile.. im feelin really emotional 2 4 some reason.. maybe its coz im sleepy/tired.. i was watchin one tree hill and i don't know if it was sad, but i was really into it and felt kinda depressed watchin it.. lol its so weird.. my brain is half on.. half off..
i had a really long day today. woke up at 7.. was at livo station at 8.. we had a business excursion to centre point tower..
it was an alright day but alot of :S things happend.. 1st one was at the station.. i put my ticket in the thingo.. and i thought it accepted it and i walked straight into the thing.. lol i just went totally blank.. cant think of that things name.. u no where u put ur tickets in and then the bar thing opens? well yeh that.. i walked straight into it :S lol the train ride was ok.. we got at the city around 9 sumthin...
it was fun.. lol me n my frends were on the lookout 4 hot guyz.. 12 o'clock.. nooo! 1 o'clock.. =D (omg im readin the work o'clock and i realised ive neva wrote it b4.. it doesnt look right.. did i spell it rite?) anywayz.. we had a tour.. 9 girls in our group.. we had this tour guide named john robert.. lol my frends thought he was cute.. but sumthin reminded me of this other guy i didnt really like so yeh..
he was kinda weird 2.. he kept talkin and afta he would make a statement he would kinda wait 4 the group to respond and say something and he would always give these 'looks' like weird.. but it was really funny..
hhaha around 11:30 we went to eat at the revolving buffet restaurant.. the waiter dudes name was anthony.. lol he was alright lookin.. anywayz lorenzo was sittn at our table and he was sooo funny.. he kept telln the waiter that prameeta thought he was hot and he kept goin ooooo playa playa 2 him.. kept teasin him.. lol poor waiter he couldnt really say anythin.. he would have a straight face and wen he would walk away he would do this cheeky smile.. it was so funny.. i havent laughed so much in ages.. my tummy went sore lol..
the food was ok.. view was really nice.. ive been there b4.. =( haha but it was betta with a big group of frends rather than just 1 person.. u have more fun.
train ride home was ok.. i realised i talk about nuthin.. and i talk alot!.. i try to stop but i cant.. so i was sittn on the train who noes wat i was talkin about.. i cant even remember.. =S oh wellz..
got back at livo.. me amy n chloe went 2 livo.. i vs amy in about 8 games of DDR.. it was fun.. i won once or twice.. ooo im getn betta.. uz betta look out.. hehe
anywayz afta we took chloe bak 2 station.. me n amy were walkin on the road bak 2 westfields.. n then this guy in this green lancer kept lookin outa the window.. and then he was like tryin 2 talk 2 me or sumthin.. he was noddin his head n then shaking it.. and then as the car drove off.. he stuck his head out and was doin sumthin with his hand... no idea wat.. but it was really weird and funny lol he was cute.. haha *blushes* lol
isnt it weird how people u dont usually talk 2.. talk 2 u 2 impress other people? like we were walkin and then this guy from skool who we dont talk 2 was drivin and had a girl in his car.. he stuck his head outa the window and yells out to us "u dont even say hi no more?" like we usually did? wtf.. he was probably tryin 2 impress that girl.. lol stupid guys tryin 2 impress girls.. y dont they just learn 2 b honest? tell em how u feel?
wen we were on the train bak we were talkin bout like wat 2 do if u likes sum1.. and u didnt no u liked them.. as soon as u admit to urself u like them.. everythin kinda changes.. and u no u shouldnt like them but u do.. and u have no idea wat 2 do.. they mite like u.. but they dont tell u.. so if u dont tell them u like them they'll neva no and then u'll neva no that they like u.. and then u miss ur chance.. luv is so confusing.. :S
im really tired and : and emotional.. lol i cant think of a word to describe it.. maybe its coz of memories and reminiscing about the past. but i shouldnt think about the past.. its the present i should look forward to the future. the future scares me. 2day i wanted 2 stay at livo i didnt wanna go home.. as soon as u go home reality hits u again and u can't live in that fantasy world u were in.. u have to face the real hard facts.
im not feelin 2 well.. i feel dizzy.. and sick in my tummy like im gona throw up.. lol (sumthin u prob dont wanna read about but who cares.. ill throw up on u if u complain =)... ) haha wen i was walkin here 2 the computer i hit my toe on the table.. it killed so much! *ouchys*
2moro im gona get my nails done in fairfield.. i gota wake up early b4 the bank closes.. renew my bankcard.. hopefully look 4 clothes.. and then nails.. its really weird.. my mum actually offered 4 me to go fairfield with my cuz.. her mum and my mum are up 2 sumthin and i dont think its good.. it seems so serious and secretive.. im actually worried about wat they mite b doin together and keepin it a secret from every1..
its not normal 4 me 2 worry about my mum.. its annoying.. i dont no y i do it.. like its not my job 2 worry but i just do it all the time.. its nuthin i can control.. its none of my business.. y do i care? arghh.. lol
i mite b some kinda control freak or sumthin.. even though i dont no the entire meaning of that.. i just think its like i gota control certain situations.. i have problems *sigh*
lol oh wellz.. overall i feel happy.. relaxed.. but thats only coz im in my la la land.. in the bottom of my tummy n the back of my head i got little messages sayin "wtf r u doin on the net.. u gota do stuff.. ur wastin time".. GUILT.. :S 4 now ill try 2 ignore them..
ignorin those messages makes me tired..
anywayz.. blehhh

ps.. i 4got to mention that wen we were walkin on the footpath on the street near the station, they were doin road work stuff and we followed this sign... said sumthin like "pesestrians watch step" thought it was a detour.. a safe way so we didnt have to walk on the busy road.. we went through and ended up at a dead end! so embarassing.. and there was a person in the buildin.. probably saw us.. hehe.. yeh..
pss.. i keep 4gettn to mention stuff.. the waiter anthony stopped clearing our table.. i think he was embarassed.. he wasnt doin his job!.. he cleared both tables next to ours.. :S