arghh.. im emotional again :S *groans* i was goin through all the formal pics from last night.. i duno if it was realising that i might never see these people again or the song im listenin to (james blunt - goodbye my lover) or a combination of both..every1 looked so beautiful last night.. *jealousy* i was so uncomfortable last night.. before i left the house my grandma even said relax.. she said that it can be seen that i wasnt in a good mood from the way i 'carried' myself.. i looked shit and she could tell.. i was just so annoyed.. i dont work well under pressure.. or in a rush.. i need everythin to be organised.. and when my plans change.. i get really stressed.. and me bein stressed comes through to the way i look.. i guess its the same with everyone.. but im so jealous of how beautiful every1 looked.. i knew i shoulda got a new dress.. the whole night i was so unfomfortable in the back of my mind i kept tellin myself that tasha looked heaps betta than me.. i hate bein like that.. i never used to be like that.. i used to be more confident.. i duno whats happend.. ive become heaps more self concsious and yeh.. i hate this feeling.. i thought i was over it all.. i guess i will be tommorrow.. but yeh..
fuk i havent had time to stop and slow down.. im so tired. my brain is tired. i havent had one days rest. i need one day to just stop. stay home. watch my movies. continue a normal routine. but nooo everyday im out.. either shoppin, visitin ppl.. or now helpin my aunty... tommorrow im goin 2 her office to look afta the shop and greet customers while she goes decorates a function.. im gona be so bored.. some1 visit me.! its on The Horsley Drive.. theres a big sign sayin BRIDAL FACTORY.. shes like on th 2nd level or sumthin.. Bejour Event Managment.. any1 can find it.. come c meeee.. and on Sunday i gota go church coz theyre havin this markett/fete day and i gota sell jewellery, makeup and help advertise her business.. arghh i need a break.. i wana stay home.. i wana think.. i wana cry... i just need to rest.. i cant even explain how tired i am.. im running in overload.. im becomming really snappy at people and becomming more impatient.. i hate goin on the net.. atm im away pretendin im playin fullscreen game.. but im not obviously.. i just cbf to talk to anyone.. no1 really wants to talk to me anywayz,,
omg today i was at my aunties shop and she needed an electrician so i called prameeta. i feel so bad.. im sorry.. he really didnt hav to come it wasnt that important.. u had that thing on 2moro.. uze were probably busy.. i didnt even think.. so sorry.. but a really big thanx.. ur dad came out really quickly and was really good at his job.. i was so embarassed to call.. but she needed an electrician b4 monday n today was the only day shed be there..
hmmz.. im so annoyed! lol every1 keeps askin me 4 pics.. but i havent had time 2 upload them onto the net.. and yah.. every1 keeps askin.. maybe i should delete msn.. not like i talk to any1 anymore... doesnt seem like any1 really wants to other than ppl from skool..
anywayz enough depressin blogs.. im just overtired.. and need a break..
bye byezzz
xoxoxo Sam
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2 comments:
yeawy im the only cool one
coz i didnt ask u
coz i knew everyone wuld b bombarding u with the same question
^______^"
anyways i didnt think the formal was that fun
but i told ppl it was fun so they wuldnt think my night was shitty
anyways.. ^__^ relax
the whole friday iw as sleepin n eating
mostly sleeping
now im back again!
hope u wil get ur day of relaxation
amy "the one who didnt ask"
hahhaha
u looked really good! my mum really liked the dress =) hope you get some you time soon
xo
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